Where do they go?

Well it’s apparently 11pm, but as the clocks have changed, my body thinks its 12pm yet still I’m fully awake making the most of what’s left of my weekend.

Where does the weekend go, finish work on a Friday, and in the blink of an eye it’s Sunday night. They seem to get faster and faster every week. I know I’m not alone here on this belief, but it doesn’t make me feel any better about it….

However, I have had a really nice weekend, no real agenda for one, which makes a great change to usual weekends for me. Usually there’s a hundred and one things to do, a good 99 of which are generally worrying about work, with the remaining 2 being plans for Saturday and Sunday respectively. Yesterday, I had a haircut which was desperately needed (I went for the usual approach of having plenty off as I know not when I will have time for another…..maybe pre Christmas, who knows), I then wandered to Waitrose to but some fresh pastry goodness for breakfast, and that was pretty much it….until a friend invited me to theirs for the evening, so we went to the pub for a drink, then back home to go out for dinner with family and friends. Impromptu plans are always the best in my opinion. Then today, I spent most of the day with the same friend as last night, which was really cool, just bumming around, and then went out tonight. I’ve been feeling really pretty down recently, not my usual bubbly self, and yet somehow she always makes me feel better just being in her company! You may have guessed that this ‘friend’ is the same friend I have talked about in recent posts about being lost and confused etc…. BUT, you’ll be glad to know I’m not going into that tonight!! (Lucky you Colin & Siobhan…)

On my way home from my friends place this evening, I notice through the car windscreen how clear the night is. So I stopped in the middle of no-where, turned off the engine, and…..complete silence. Then looking to the sky, the winter darkness and clarity provided an awesome sight. I haven’t seen the stars so bright in so very long. I find looking at the night sky to be one of the single most humanizing actions possible. Not for awesomeness off it, but for the belittling feeling one gets, that everything each individual does is quite frankly so insignificant. The wars we fight on this little planet over ridiculous things, the things that get to us which are so pointless. With a simple look up, it all falls into insignificance. If like me you spend the majority of your time alone thinking and pondering and need to find some clarity, go find a solitary space on a clear night and just stare at the sky. I was lucky enough tonight to also see 2 shooting stars, so lets see if those wishes come true.

So as I lie here writing this, I try to consider that the working week ahead of me will be different to all the others, somehow better. But then this is how I always start my weeks, only to be disappointed by maybe 11am on a Monday morning, but we shall see….

I hope all of those who read this have had great weekends, and are ready to face another week, simply to get us to another weekend.